We all want justice. There are things that have happened in our lives that demand it; things we have done that trigger it; an unkind word, a lack of empathy, an emotional manipulation; we lie, we steal, we cheat, we do petty things. Sometimes we do dangerous or illegal or truly immoral things - those things others call sins. Our actions cause hurt - physical or emotional or financial - to others, and those things earn us the retribution that follows. Other times we lift others up, we stand our ground when the odds are against us, we draw a line in the sand and say to others "this far and no further" because it is the right thing to do. And in those moments we become something better.
With the riots in Vancouver and the backlash from social media I have come to learn something about Karma. No matter what you do, no matter what you think, no matter what you say, in the end we all earn our Karma and it comes at us when we aren't expecting it. Good or bad, in the end it catches up with us. It doesn't matter how we justify our actions, or ask for forgiveness. It doesn't matter if we try to atone after the condemnation that falls down when the truth is found out. "Time makes the truth fall out of the trees...", and I have seen how quickly that can happen when there are dozens, hundreds, or thousands of eyes watching. But when there is no one watching, when we do things that write on our souls in the privacy of our thoughts we still earn what comes. No matter how we deny it, no matter how we dodge or continue to live the lies, it comes. Yes, Karma is a bitch, and she is always watching.
I am learning to live with the positive thought that I earn what I give. What I do will always have consequences, so I will at least do no harm and at best do some good. It's a nice thought... it takes a lot of effort to change what I was into what I want to be from this time forward. If I give help, I will earn help when I truly need it. If I give kindness and thoughtfulness, I will see it in others. I think calming thoughts to let go of my fears for myself and those I love, and feel more serene. I acknowledge my faults, knowing that what I see I can change, and I work to change them! I show those who want me to fail my smiles and laughter. I show my indifference to those who lie about me, and as a consequence their lies colour them and don't touch me. And the best thing is I don't have to prove to anyone that I am better or nicer or kinder... because the only person it really affects is me.
So now Karma is starting to deliver things I never expected; justice. Not just for me, but for all those who have been affected by what has happened. And what I have been telling myself for a long time is this; Justice is like a summer peach - no matter how much you watch, no matter how much you wish, no matter how hungry you are for it, it still takes time to ripen on it's own; and when it finally falls into your hands it is so sweet... After a very long winter and a hard spring, summer is finally arriving for me, and there are a bushel of peaches!
So welcome, Karma! I'll have a caffe mocha vodka valium latte to go, please!
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